Figuring it Out
Last time we spoke, I was a bit more than mad. Some might say I ventured into angry territory. Which I really try not to be when it comes to sports but honestly I can not help it. They pissed me off.
Since then, I have relaxed a bit. Quite truthfully, it seemed like every team I ever actively chose to root for was trying to get me to quit this blog all at once. Make sure I was so mad I gave up my fandoms & never turned on a game or race again. Sadly, for everyones sake, I am still here, typing away while watching this Eagles v. Chiefs match up.
This weekend was actually quite a nice turn around from whatever special form of torture the last few weeks were.
Tottenham has been off to quite a solid start this season. We have only conceded one goal so far & I’m very much wanting this to mean that our defense is finally figuring it out. 4 matches in & I hope that we continue with this momentum & stay healthy.
Although I previously stated (quite strongly) my extreme dislike for college football week 2. Alabama did win & they won week 3 as well. Sometimes a win is a win no matter who you play & how ugly it might look in the process (looking at you my OSU fans). A win can do wonders for the confidence of players & I really need these last 2 weeks to be not just because we played not good teams but because we are determined to be a competitive force the rest of the season.
Guys, I’m not going to lie to you right now. My one fantasy team? Trash. Just bare minimum playable. Looking for a clean zero win season. That’s the goal for the one that I wrote about in the Draft Day blog. I was thrown into another league with my friends boyfriends family (I think). I adore my line up with them. Y’all, not to flex on you too much but, I really ate it up.
Truthfully, I think the reason why I am feeling so content this week is because there was no Formula One on to make my blood boil. After messy races like Monza, there is nothing I love more than having a week off. This gives the teams time (I am looking at you McLaren) to regroup and drivers time to reset if they mentally come out of the weekend in tough shape. Sometimes a week off as a fan is what I need to get reset too. Clearly. I wondered why I was so at peace this weekend? Then, I realized as I sat down to write it was because I wasn’t getting enraged by 20 men driving in really fast cars in foreign countries. So, with a race weekend coming up, let’s put out into the universe that I keep my cool. (Or, even better, that they don’t do anything to make me want to rage throw my tv into the Hudson)
I’m not going to lie, I was struggling to think of something to write today. (Editor Note during the final read through: I hated this post & almost deleted the whole thing but then remember the quote, make it exist then make it good, or something like that) It was a mix of writers block & then coming up with so many different options at once that I didn’t know what to choose.
There is so much that I would love to discuss & it’s clear based on my notes app on my phone. I have so many random lists & thoughts just sitting & I sometimes find it hard to articulate them on a broader scale.
Sometimes, I really think that the blog is just me shouting into the void & that it’s ramblings of someone who needs to be evaluated psychologically. I have found myself trying to figure out where exactly I would like this to go like what the plans are for the future. I am feeling very spacey at the moment. But at the heart of this blog it’s me thinking out into a larger space that isn’t confined by my gorgeous curly hair (shoutout Riri’s genetics for that). So really, I want to say thank you for sticking with me while I figure it all out. I just really this to be consistently amazing & continually growing.
Okay, I’m magnificently sleep deprived & need to stop looking at this screen.
Talk soon.
